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[_] Anon 3443320 I'm feeling that kind of sadness everybody feels from time to time. The feeling of reminiscence of the things that are gone, either those that actually happened or either those I just dreamt of and never came true. A kind of sadness it's only possible to embrace in autumn or winter. I am currently 27. I use to think how it will be when time passes and my parents begin to decline. I really fear it, not only for the pain that is watching decay the people who cared the most about you along all your life, but also because I feel I'm going to stand alone. Having no chance to form a family to rely upon nor to love. Anticipating is useless, I know, but still. I use to think from time to time how good would be to escape from the city madness, even if I would be set for an even crueler solitude. So when this comes to my mind I try to forget. But still, that sadness also brings me some joy, maybe because I know I can share it somehow. Life will get worse and we only have these kind of moments. Moments of truth, of compassion, of brotherhood. I thought it was just fitting bringing this to /f/, as sort of my final contribution, even if it is just a video I converted from youtube. I think it captures the simplicity of the wishes and feeling for most people not involved in the complicated power playfield we live today on. I don't want to speak for everybody but I want to have a simple life. I appreciate what I have thanks to this century but I also think I don't stand a chance. It's just too much. Anyway, please enjoy this /f/. I love you. Stay safe.
>> [_] Anon 3443379 Holy shit man, you have no idea how similar i am and feel. I'm also getting close to my thirties, it both scares and amazes me. "When the fuck all this time flew away?" i ask myself probably a way more often than i should, i find myself thinking and taking things like an old man. Despite this i found two mottoes i try to keep in mind at all times. 'You can't keep blaming yourself. Just blame yourself once and move on.' - Homer Simpson is fucking right, i'm taking this mindset whenever shit happens to me. This helped me a lot when I've fucked up something really bad i felt dying out of grief. "It was much better when we were stupid." - my friend said this when we were playing again a game after a long time of absence. First time was much more enjoyable, we didn't know what's the best strategies, best items or the most efficient order of things to do. Meta game killed the regular game. I was thinking about this a little, then i realized it was true for almost everything else in my life. If something is not vital for me or someone i know, i never try to do something above my limits. Never force yourself, and never go all at once, life is a marathon not a 100m hurdles. This made my life less of a burden, and God know how much i needed this.
>> [_] Anon 3443404 Why is this board so special? It reminds of a comic I read where human beings had achieved immortally and had essentially become transcendent. Even after spreading throughout the entire universe, there was one final problem that for the life of them, they could not solve. Reversing entropy. The final, immortal, post-humanity who had been alive for billions of years at that point watched as the stars slowly faded out as the inevitable and unstoppable heat death of the Universe approached. I guess /f/ feels that way. It's a place that I remember so fondly and it is sad to slowly watch it die and not being able to do anything about it. It is a heart-wrenching but beautiful feeling and an analogue for my life. It's sad watching the people and things you love decay but I have come to realize throughout my life that the expression is true. "When one door closes, another door opens". Life goes on. I'm just glad I have the memories that I have made here.
>> [_] Anon 3443410 >># >A kind of sadness it's only possible to embrace in autumn or winter. i believe i know what you're talking about however, i simply dont have many regrets in my life, its just kind of slow what i feel is hard to describe and hard to pin down its something that i have a hard time trying to get but when i do its like theres nothing better feeling in the world
>> [_] Anon 3443428 >># >A kind of sadness it's only possible to embrace in autumn or winter. I actually feel like that in summer as well. Maybe especially in summer since the feeling of wanting to paint everything black comes mixed in once you see loving families and couples enjoying the waning winter for the first time everywhere again.