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[_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)04:19:07 No.

  Started thinking about my future. Bit unhappy.

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>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)05:20:07 No.

  >>3209711
  I dropped out of school. But I'm about to start a program to get my highschool equivalency
  degree. Then, I'm going to train in a trade, since my mother wants me to move out. After getting
  the degree, and the trade, I'm going to have to move out, stop being a NEET.
  I haven't been particularly happy, as a NEET. I spend all my time sleeping, posting here, reading
  manga, watching anime, playing games, Etc., seems like the dream, huh? But, sometimes, I just
  feel empty. I guess this is what they say depression feels like, huh? Though I don't want anyone
  to think of me as depressed. I mean, what do I have to be depressed about? No worries, get to
  enjoy my hobbies all day, it seems pathetic that I'm so unhappy.
  But when I think of my future, moving out, getting a job, Etc., I just get even less happy. I
  feel like I'm just going to work it for a few years, until I finally stop being able to bare it,
  and kill myself. I've felt like I'm going to end up killing myself since I was 15. I just can't
  really imagine myself happy, anymore. I used to be able to, at lest, self-insert as some manga
  character, and fantasize about happiness, but not anymore. For example, the other day, I was
  imagining have a qt daughter, after reading some good fatherhood manga. After a few minutes, it
  turned into her and my wife, in the fantasy, getting hit by a car, killing my wife, and turning a
  my daughter into a vegetable. Then I just imagined myself taking care of her for years, drinking
  my sorrows away every night, and being miserable.
  Even in my dreams, I can't escape. Why am I so pathetic, /f/? And I can only vent to you
  anonymous users. Thanks for listening to this pathetic faggot, /f/.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)05:50:17 No.

  >>3209723
  you gotta set goals man
  do shit that will improve your life like being healthy and shit. And if you fap erryday, then
  stop. It will ruin your motivation to do anything. These thing really do make a difference.
  You should also try some drugs like lsd and maybe a little of potunski but dont overdo it. Stay
  away from extacy and mdma tho, if you're depressed those will flush your system of all remaining
  serotonin and you will become even more depressed.
  I would recommend that you use your neetbux to buy some bitcoins and then order some lsd blotters
  from valhalla. Might help you get back on track, if not at least you'll get a nice trip.
  Also just being healthy in general and eating right makes everything easier
  Hope u get better my /f/ag

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)05:54:45 No.

  >>3209723
  It's almost uncanny how many people I've met who have felt the same way.
  It's also scary how much I see myself falling into that.
  Ofcourseyou'reunhappy.I'vebeenunhappyforthesamereason,andI'vefeltunhappyaboutthedire
  ctionmylifeseemeditwouldinevitablygoin.Butfuckthat,I'mtiredoffeelinglikeasackofshita
  llthetimelikeit'stheonlywayIknowhowtofeel.Anyoneshouldreasonablybeabletogettoapointi
  ntheirlifewheretheyhavesomethingtoshowforthemselves,andIknowdamnwellIshouldto.I'llfi
  ndsomethingandworkhardatit.Evenifit'snotsomethingIlike,there'ssomuchinlifetosee,orta
  ste,orpractice,orfeel,that'sworthworkingtowards,theshitthatmakeslifeworthlivingthatI
  canonlydreamofwhileI'mstaringatafuckingcomputerscreen.I'mputtingmyfuckingfootdownwit
  hmygarbageattitude,sittinginmyroomalldaystressingoutaboutmyfuture.Whatmakesthisanybe
  tterthanadead-endjob,oravegetabledaughter,oranyothershittysituationlifemightputmein?
  I'mfuckingsickofit.I'mgonnahaveafuckingfuture,one
  way or another.
  It's 6 AM. I typed this in one shot and I'm not gonna bother proofreading it, and I'm gonna post
  it despite probably sounding like a massive faggot. Food for thought, OP.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)05:58:06 No.

  >>3209711
  I don't know what I want to do. I probably won't have to move out, but I will likely have to
  become the man of the household within the next fifteen years.

  I held consistent employment for three years at one point, but almost completely lost my mind.
  Not in an angry or sad kind of way, but each day, it felt like I lost my grip on reality more and
  more. Dealing with rude customers for over forty hours a week just wasn't something I could do
  anymore, I guess.

  My biggest problem is, there isn't much I want to do in life. It's harder to find games and anime
  I enjoy, and frankly, that's what I find actual joy in. It feels like I just deal with everything
  else.

  If I didn't have to worry about getting money for food, and if I felt safe sleeping somewhere
  outside of this house, I feel like I'd be content to just watch things happen. But having food
  and private rooming costs consistent money, and it feels like the only way to make consistent
  money is to dedicate five out of seven days each week to something that feels meaningless.

  I've often thought about looking into self-sustaining societies around the world, but I'm afraid
  that if I dedicated everything to getting to one of those and it fell apart, I'd have no way to
  get to another one.

  4chan's probably the strangest place to say something like this, but stepping outside and seeing
  people constantly disrespecting others is depressing, and given the current political climate in
  the United States, it's only getting worse.

  >>3209731
  >And if you fap erryday, then stop. It will ruin your motivation to do anything.
  I'm not the same anon, but I had about a year without masturbation. After a few months from
  starting, it kept getting harder and harder to abstain, and it felt like it took all of my focus
  when urges came to keep them at bay. I relieve myself about once every three or four weeks
  instead, now. I know you didn't say to completely abstain, but I feel like sharing experience can
  be helpful.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:13:43 No.

  >>3209731
  I've fapped nearly everyday since I was, like, 14. I know I do it too much, but I've always felt
  that if I didn't, someone might see me getting a boner. Though that's just a shitty excuse for my
  own lack of self control. I don't ever plan to do drugs. I already try to stay away from alcohol,
  though I always feel better when I do drink it. My father was a drunkard. It ended up killing
  him. I can't let myself repeat his mistakes.
  >>3209732
  You know, sometimes I say that, too. But then I wake up the next morning, no longer motivated.
  It's so hard to keep up the will to get better.
  >>3209735
  If I ever had any money, I'd buy and build a cabin in the woods, with a little signal tower, to
  just be alone, and grow my own food, without losing my connection to you guys. I'd also buy a
  building to rent out, or something, to get a bit of extra cash. But I don't have any money. And I
  know that living as a hermit would be even worse than where I am now. But it does seem like the
  dream, huh?
  You know, the getting a job part isn't what gets me. It's the fact that I know it won't really
  turn my life around.

  You know, sometimes, I feel like I don't even really want to get better. I mean, I had always
  wanted to be the smart guy. Like a scientist. Donatello was my favorite Ninja Turtle. But my
  failure to become anything like that has lead me to the only option: the tortured genius. Society
  glorifies depression too much. Even though I know that I not tortured, nor a genius, I can't stop
  feeling like, at least, some people might assume I'm not a complete idiot. But, realistically, I
  know more people assume I'm even dumber than I am, for being such a failure.
  I guess, really, I know that, even if I do get better, I'll still be irrelevant, unimportant,
  uninteresting. At least, now, I could pass for a character in an indie movie, or a manga.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:15:27 No.

  I'm alright I suppose. Future plans? None. Future prospects? None. Guess I'm a bit silly
  actually. I enjoy not having a job or anything though. You kind of have to mould yourself into
  the working mindset and i'm just not ready for that kind of thing at the minute.

  bit unhappy about my gyno tits. they're not even that noticeable, it's just that my nipples are
  incredibly noticeably gross and it makes me feel annoyed when i put effort into working out and
  looking nice but can't even take my top off. An incredibly superficially annoyance, I know.
  Historians from a hundred years in the future won't care how my tits looked. They won't care
  about me at all in all honesty. We're just passengers in life, we get a chance to view history as
  it happens in our lives and that should mean more to you than how pretty or handsome you are.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:20:28 No.

  Paying rent, food on the table, shit job but pays good enough, life seems pretty good

  Maybe you guys are over thinking it lol

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:26:25 No.

  >>3209736
  >I had always wanted to be the smart guy.
  My least favorite thing to hear is, "But you're so smart!" Apparently not being a complete
  fucking idiot passes for being perceived as a genius by a notable amount of people.

  >>3209737
  >You kind of have to mould yourself into the working mindset
  This is what hurts the most, really. I gave it a go for three years as mentioned above. Maybe it
  was just me having a shitty job (I did) or something, but that "working mindset" came at a cost.

  >we get a chance to view history as it happens in our lives and that should mean more to you than
  how pretty or handsome you are
  I respect the hell out of this.

  >>3209739
  In my experience, the "shit job" aspect outweighed all of the benefits. I hardly spent anything
  while employed so I've been able to coast for a while now, but I am not looking forward to having
  to get back into it. To me, it felt like if I had to endure five days of work each week, I'd
  just, well, rather not.

  I don't know how to get past that.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:27:24 No.

  >>3209736
  >I've fapped nearly everyday since I was, like, 14

  mfw I never fapped in my life.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:30:15 No.

  >>3209741
  Unless you can find a way to make money doing something you like, your gonna have to bite the
  bullet

  Listen to music, chit-chat, find something to make the work more intersting, but at the end of
  the day rents gotta get paid

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:34:08 No.

  >>3209736
  Yeah staying away from alcohol is good. But seriously, psychedelics might help with your
  depression. Many people have had life changing experiences with them.

  >>3209742
  Are you twelve?

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:36:14 No.

  >>3209723

  I think most people on this website can relate to you, man. You feel empty because human beings
  were not designed to indulge non-stop for hours on end.

  You need a little contrast in your life. It's funny that you talk about learning a trade because
  I actually signed up for Job Corps (free trade school funded by the federal government) and went
  away from home for half a year.

  That place made sure that you were CONSTANTLY busy. Everything was structured. You'd spend about
  two hours every morning waking up at 6 to eat breakfast, clean and get ready for your classes.

  Classes last for several hours, it's meant to simulate a full time job.

  ANYWAYS. That was the first time in a long while that I actually branched out. I found out a few
  things about myself..

  >I always had the feeling I was unattractive, but when I put myself out there were plenty of
  opportunities for relationships

  >It's easy to make friends and have fun when you apply yourself. Social skills take constant
  effort but you get back what you put in, just like most things in life.

  >Not masturbating for extended periods of time DOES effect your state of mind. Just an example..
  When you are talking to a girl, you will have a deep rooted feeling in your pelvis region that
  pushes you to be flirtatious. It's like sexual energy and I can tell it gets depleted when you
  masturbate. It's hard to explain.

  >When your brain isn't being flooded with dopamine constantly, the small things mean a lot more
  to you and the big things aren't so stressful. It's just easier to get out of bed in the morning
  when you've got a task to look forward to completing so you can get to what you are passionate
  about. Once again, that passion will come when you start living a healthy life again.

  I was where you were for a long time. I hope you consider some of my advise and if it helps you
  pass it along.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:37:27 No.

  >>3209742
  If you don't get the urges or have someone else to take care of them, I'd say keep it that way.
  I'd kill to get rid of the constant urges.

  >>3209743
  You're right. Thanks for saying this, it helps a lot more than what I tend to hear on this side
  of the screen.

  >>3209744
  I can attest to pot on occasion being a MASSIVE help for me. Unfortunately, the work I was had
  random tests, and I wasn't willing to risk it. I honestly feel like if I could have come home to
  a hit in the evening, I'd have not quit work.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:45:06 No.

  >>3209747
  Good luck out there man, rooting for ya

  All of ya

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)06:51:23 No.

  Sometimes I wonder where the fuck y'all are while I'm out and about, but sometimes I think that,
  in a positive kind of way, it's better like this.

  This is our world just as much as it is anyone else's. Let's just try to enjoy what little pieces
  we get while we're still around.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)07:59:19 No.

  Well op. I personally work 2 jobs, 75 hours a week and I scrape by with the little with I have.
  Life is difficult, And without proper goals and due diligence you will end up like me. I
  personally do not find myself living much longer.
  Don't make the same mistake I did, Apply yourself in life. Do well in your schoolwork and go to
  college. Get that piece of paper that proves your merit and go into the world on proper footing.
  Walk with your eyes looking to the future, don't dilly dally every day and end up a completely
  worthless sack of shit like me.
  - A 25 year old who will be killing himself very soon.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)09:09:31 No.

  Hey guys, 20 y/o from Australia here.

  I can relate to a lot of stuff you guys are saying, I personally don't have any friends/gf since
  I got into tv/film and vidya during high school, it made me really introverted, and I lost touch
  with everyone, I've been out of highschool for 2 years now and haven't made a single friend, I
  feel pretty incompetent.

  Still live at home, I work at a cafe with good people, and I see a psych regularly. Currently
  between Uni degrees, going back next month.

  My advice? Get a hobby, set some goals, I'm currently looking to volunteer with my state's public
  paramedic company, and am currently in the process to join my local shooting club.

  If you can, go see a psych, I know it may seem daunting sometimes, and it can be tough to put
  yourself on the spot and make the first step (took me probably 2 years to get around going to
  mental health support services), but maybe it will help you? I feel like my psych is a good
  friend I can tell anything, the progress is slow, but I'm getting there

  My goals? Go back to the gym (eventually, haven't been in 3 months lol) and get my bachelor
  finished (Human Biology Preclinical), I'm contemplating studying medicine after.

  Stand firm men, never give in.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)09:22:45 No.

  >>3209744
  I have will strenght you fgt.

  >>3209747
  Oh I do get the fucking urges.

  I have some pretty intense wet dreams from time to time.

  But I always find the act disguting to look at and to hear so I'd ra ther not perform it on
  myself until I have to have a sperm test or whatever.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)09:28:20 No.

  >>3209767
  You could learn a language and move to a country with free colleges.

  I know a 50 year old who is starting a career right now while he works in the office he has
  worked in all his life.

  I suggest Argentina.
  One of the provinces, not the capital.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)09:53:40 No.

  >>3209723
  >>3209732
  >>3209735
  >>3209736
  >>3209746
  >>3209782
  It's pretty interesting tho'. How many adult males are feeling meaningless, depressed and above
  all just empty. The number just keeps increasing, it's sad but understandable. (About to write a
  helluva essay, so for TL;DR scroll to bottom.)

  Why are so many people like this? Why are so many of us depressed, and why is the majority male?
  Well, there are multiple reasons:

  One (and what I believe is the primary reason) is bad parenting. Our parents didn't raise us
  exactly the same way as most other kids, or they just weren't as "good" as other parents. They
  left us, didn't care for us, didn't give us any attention.
  So is that it? No. Most people like us (as most of you can agree) got along well with their
  parents, and our parents usually cared for us, but there was still something different about our
  parents then most of the other kids parents, and we could feel that when we noticed the behaviour
  of the other kids.
  So what was missing, and why does it affect us so much? Was it maybe a little attention, a little
  feeling of love or little more care?
  Nope, it was interaction. We didn't "interact" too much with our parents. Either because we felt
  like we wanna hang out with friends, read a book, play video games, or do something WITHOUT our
  parents, and our parents let us get as far away from them as long as they can knew we were safe
  and would go to school when we had to. Sure my dad loves me and I love him too, but other then on
  the vacations I don't see him too much, only like 30-90 minutes a day and even then maybe we talk
  like 20 mins at the dinner table, and thats it.
  Our parents didn't raise us properly, they were not good parents, and that's because of bad
  responsibility, they are not responsible enough to raise kids, 'cause they think the way their
  parents raised them, or the way they see it on TV is the correct way to be a parent, but it's
  not. Lot more parents like this are turning up in the world.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)09:55:03 No.

  >>3209792
  I aint seeing no TLDR desu

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:18:04 No.

  >>3209792
  Also, I think it's just that, lately, a lot of us are really needed anymore. Or, at least, we
  aren't wanted.
  Nowadays, instead of marrying some girl from highschool, or the neighborhood, at 22, we can't
  find a serious relationship for much longer, because less women want them. And, while fucking
  around with tons of girlfriends might be fun, I suspect that it isn't often fulfilling. Then
  again, I've never had a girlfriend.
  Also, it's just so easy to drop into our hobbies, nowadays. I mean, there used to be only so many
  trainsets to build, and you'd need friends to go fishing with.
  Now, there's an nearly unlimited amount of videogames, anime, Etc.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:18:28 No.

  >>3209792
  >>3209793
  I'm not even close to being done yet, so just wait until the last reply. Might end up being a few
  hours.

  These parents don't realize how much damage they are causing their children by not raising them
  properly. It's not the teachers in the school, it's not document films in the TV, it's not the
  scientists in the video games, or it's not the books that should teach us, makes us learn about
  life or anything else. The ones who should raise and teach us should be our parents, but they
  fucked up.
  They weren't responsible enough, or were expecting something more from their child why not caring
  about them. Lot of dad's wanted a daughter but got son(s) instead, or the kid has good grades,
  but the parents expect more from them, like wanting them to do better, play more sports, etc...
  After all that bad parenting/irresponsible parenting the kid usually still grows up, and might
  end up in an elite high-school, collage, etc..., does well in whatever he does, but none notices
  how he feels inside. He has no real goals, just wants to impress his parents/relative, he has no
  motivation just the thought "Heh... What better can I do anyway?". He has this feeling of
  emptiness inside him and no-one notices or no-one cares, because that's how he always is, or
  because he has no friends, or he has way to really show his feelings or emotions and even if he
  would, he thinks none would care.
  At the end, when the "process" is done there are many things that can happen, but the most common
  ones are suicide, being a NEET, or just being a generally boring/"uncool" grumpy, rude person.
  After that the parents are all like "Oh, where did I go wrong?" or "Why was my kid always
  bullied? Maybe that's why he committed suicide!" or "How come my son is such a failure? WHY DID
  IT END UP LIKE THIS?". Parents love their children most of the time, but loving your kids and
  being responsible enough to raise them are two completely different things.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:19:06 No.

  >>3209798
  >are
  *aren't

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:24:29 No.

  I'm a schizophrenic who has spent almost the last four years either homeless or in transit. I
  rarely know what's going on and if I try to think really more than not at all about anything I
  break in various ways depending. I get to a point as most people would how some are listless but
  holy fuck look at how good things might be for you. My entire life has been like this and even
  fucking worse. I was raised in literal drug rings and have been involuntarily involved in at
  least two swat raids because of that. I've seen my pets brutally slaughtered in front of me. I've
  seen my mother be beat literally to death in front of me. Do you know what it's like to eat out
  of the trash so you don't starve? Have you ever had to worry about freezing to death while you
  sleep in a ditch? I'm just scratching the surface.

  I get things, I do, but fucking shit does the vast majority of human suffering seem terribly
  petty to me. You have your mind and a body that works which is leagues above what I have and
  you're fucking depressed because of what? Humans suffer. It's apart of being human. Get up out of
  the dirt and deal with it if only because you can.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:28:01 No.

  >>3209801
  You don't seem to understand. The point of this thread isn't feeling bad because of what's
  happened. It's feeling empty for no reason.
  Also,
  >someone else has it worse, so you aren't entitled to being unhappy
  Well, think about the starving children in Africa who'd be happy to take your place, Jackass.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:36:16 No.

  >>3209804
  That's not the point I'm raising, dumbshit. You've no reason not to make the best of what you
  have. If there is a problem fucking fix it. You could be doing so much but yet you wallow in
  self-doubt and pity. It's pathetic and you look like fags.
  >Well, think about the starving children in Africa who'd be happy to take your place, Jackass.
  Man, you've no fucking idea. That might be a better deal, desu.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:47:06 No.

  Roughly how together is your life OP?
  If depression is the only thing getting you down, you should consider taking some hallucinogens.

  2C-B is pretty easy to find and only lasts six hours.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:49:23 No.

  >>3209801
  kek
  For all we know you could be a rough brick of dirt which you can beat hit, freeze, heat, insult,
  curse, and it won't feel much of an emotional impact.
  Depends on what you're made ot of.

  A brick can say "Tsk, tsk, you know nothing about taking damage, I was thrown from 12 feet high,
  I had thousands of people step on me, etc, etc."
  And if he says that to another brick, welp, okay.
  But if he doesn't know wether he is talking to another brick or a porcelain cup...
  ...that brick better shut up and be content with what he has.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:51:46 No.

  >>3209807
  >Make the best of what you have
  OP is literally talking about how he is making the best of what he has, getting an education,
  Etc., but still feels down and knows that he'll continue to do so.
  And that's the same for a lot of us.
  It's not some sadness caused by the situation, it's emptiness caused by mental issues, like what
  he said, >>3209799 , or hormones, and what not.
  You can't just "shake it off and move forward."

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:52:14 No.

  >>3209801
  >>3209811

  You should also pray to god that your little speeches don't push the porcelain cup to jump off
  the table.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:55:48 No.

  >>3209811
  >I'm a pussy and you're not.
  Yes, we've established this. Acceptance is the first part of recovery.
  >>3209813
  >You can't just "shake it off and move forward."
  You can try. You can make the best of what you have and you can try. It's not easy and you might
  not feel better but bitching won't do anyone any good. Just keep getting up.
  >>3209814
  Do a flip, faggot.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:56:45 No.

  >>3209807
  A big point of anguish for many of us is that we shouldn't be unhappy, since we're not in the
  worst of positions, but we are.
  I mean, any working man would dream about being a NEET, but here we are, unhappy with it.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:57:22 No.

  Song name?

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:58:23 No.

  >>3209815
  >bitching won't do anyone any good.
  What's wrong with venting on an anonymous forum? Should we just bottle it up? Don't they say that
  that's the worst thing you can do? >>3209818
  Look under the flash.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)10:58:42 No.

  >>3209818

  NVM, found it.

  Medicine by Daughter

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)11:04:11 No.

  >>3209807
  That's because girls usually expect the boys to be more dominant, or "be the man" of the house
  kinda bullshit, but with the bad parenting I've been complaining about most have no idea what and
  how to do.

  >>3209801
  None understand what they don't experience. Your experiences are traumatic, but you don't
  understand this horrible parenting/society some people (like me) complain about.
  >>3209798

  >>3209804
  Not really, Africa is generally improving. While they have overpopulation, starving is becoming
  less and less and people are becoming more educated.

  >>3209807
  This thread is literally about how pathetic is it that we are depressed over nothing of feeling
  nothingness... It's pretty dumb to point out the point of a thread while trying to offend people,
  but I'll cover people like you sometime.

  >>3209799
  The second reason would be being an "uncool" kid. Now being an uncool kid can mean lot, but most
  problem here is that we let being "uncool" bother us, but let's go step by step.
  The reason man young boys (especially teenagers) are bothered by this because males have
  different way of thinking then females, and when puberty happens boys tend to become a lot more
  reserved, yet try to fit in with the "cool" kids groups. (Back to the parents) Parents usually
  don't understand that during or after puberty kids always go trough a lot. They raise their kids
  to be polite, so they don't really have rebellious phase, or other generic puberty-shit-phases,
  while girls are more open and because of their periods they nearly always have their rebellious
  phases.
  People who don't go through their "rebellious" phase usually end up being depressed, to be honest
  I have no clue other then to blame parents again.
  Usually these "uncool" kids will end up unable to fit in with the "cool" kids because of bulling,
  being reserved, or just because the other kids are going trough puberty as well and they are also
  become reserved.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)11:07:23 No.

  >>3209816
  I get that. I get that. These problems have solutions though, probably. It's entirely possible
  that some of you just have legitimate depression and can go get help for it. It's as equally
  possible that you just might not be happy individuals to which all I can say is you're certainly
  not the only ones. If the problem is clear deal with it and if it isn't you can get help to try.
  You will not get anywhere in life from just spinning your wheels.

  I've things to do. Get help or don't. Improve your life or don't. Live or don't. No matter how
  hard people want to make it it's a simple choice.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)11:14:13 No.

  >>3209823
  And we're venting about how we don't know the solutions.
  And venting is good for you. Or, for some people, anyway. Some enjoy just sorting out what their
  issues are, at the moment, for other people likely going through tough times, as well, to read
  about, who can then share their experiences, and just offer phrases like "We can both get through
  this!"
  I mean, you could've said something like, "I have this and that, and have been through this and
  that, and sometimes I just want to quit this game of life, too. But I'm still toughing on, hoping
  to hope that I can get through this, so I wish you guys would tough on, with me."
  That would've been much more polite, and likely would've made you feel a bit better, too.
  Yes, it is a bit of a circlejerk, but, sometimes, those and nice and comforting to people in need
  of comfort.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)12:14:44 No.

  >>3209815
  >Do a flip, faggot.
  Top kek

  (samefag from >>3209811 and >>3209814)

  Stay a brick, you sound fine enough.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)12:17:14 No.

  >>3209822
  Fucked up the order of replies on that one, but with logic you should be able to figure it out.

  Now the main problem is that these "uncool" kids don't realize that they don't have to be cool or
  something, or they don't have to have few hundred people friended on facebook to feel happy. Just
  go and find yourself a group of people you feel like you feel "at home" with, or just people you
  can be open to. There is no point in trying to make yourself different so you can fit in with the
  cool kids. The cool kids are generally just a bunch of assholes being somewhat more handsome then
  the rest of the people. If you end up creating a fake personality just so they accept you
  somewhere, of course you are gonna feel empty because you can only be truly yourself when your
  alone.
  Lot of friendships are superficial for such reasons. Some people just go and try to create as
  many friendships as possible while others, try to fit into cliques, but at the end of the day
  both options are pretty dumb. The main problem is that these people don't realize that they don't
  have to be "cool", "special", or anything else, really. Just try to be as happy as you can be.
  You don't have to have many friends. Your life is just as impactful and useless as the person
  next to you, not everyone needs to be a wealthy CEO, just try not being a failure.

  Would gladly write more, but I feel like it's unnecessary + writer's block came in.

  TL;DR: Most young males are failures in life because they were a victim of bad parenting. Under
  bad parenting I mean the lack of interaction with the parents made them socially incapable
  people. They tried to fit in with some larger cliques, but failed and ended up being what they
  are today. These people shouldn't care about people that care little for their existence, they
  should just try to find happy things and be more cheerful, and that "void" might disappear.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)12:26:19 No.

  This parenting thing really hits me. I've never really thought much about it and I just assumed
  things would get better, but when I think back to my childhood I never remember doing anything
  with my parents. They would go to work, come home, do something by themselves, then go to bed. I
  would just read or play video games or use the computer or watch TV. I've talked with them over
  the years and they did all this shit in their youth that I would never even think of doing. By
  the time my parents were my age, they did everything they ever wanted like escape the poverty of
  their parents, move across the country and back a few times, travel the world, take risky
  experiences (dangerous both legally and physically), have lots of emotional and sexual
  encounters, figure out what made them happy to be alive, and then finally have me. My mom lived
  in a military family and traveled the world through her childhood and got in to all kinds of shit
  with whatever locals were around at the time.

  My dad has quite a story to him. He was kicked out at 16, traveled the country on his motorbike
  staying in towns for a few weeks at a time wherever he could find work. By the time he was 21, he
  had earned his GED and found a small town Idaho that he liked. He lived in a boat on a lake while
  working at a bayliner factory and would drive his boat up and down the lake/river every night
  going to whatever bar he decided to stop at and get in to shit and pick up chicks. A few years
  later he met my mom, sold the boat, quit his factory job, sold all his stock, moved to a large
  city in WA and started HVAC (he only got the position because he had a brother working there).
  They had me at 25, moved to the Seattle area a couple years later, then bought a house a couple
  years after that in a small town in the local region.

  I am now 25 and all I've done is live in this small town with my parents, play video games and
  shitpost on 4chan.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)13:03:57 No.

  >>3209849
  Jesus. I didn't realize how much this applies to me too. It's bizarre for me that this is
  something so many people on here relate to.

  39 posts in this thread later I somehow feel like the solutions, while I still don't know what
  they are, are tangible. This whole thread has somehow been comforting. I may not have the
  motivation to try and improve in more obvious areas like fitness or social life, but now I feel
  like I can work through this with a little help, rather than feel like I'm so wrapped up in my
  own head that I'm overthinking my whole situation.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)13:16:42 No.

  Haven't read the whole thread, but just wanted to jump in and say psychedelics helped me get my
  life on track too. Used to spend some days just lying on the couch staring into empty space and
  hating myself for hours. After some smallish doses of LSD (50-100ug) life seems worth living and
  worth going out and experiencing. I've still got a long way to go and the job I have doesn't make
  me happy, but I definitely feels like I'm in a better place than before.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)13:19:52 No.

  >>3209849
  Shit, man, that's pretty familiar. I hear stories of my dad growing up in a shitty farm in the
  middle of China, going to school and being the valedictorian, working his way through college,
  then finding some way of getting to the US...

  I feel like there's some sort of disconnect. Right now I'm just some college kid who can't find a
  fucking job, and I don't even know what to do with my life. But when my dad was this age, he was
  working his ass off and sending money back to his parents.

  I dunno. I don't think I can blame it all on my parents. Sure, they never really showed me
  anything about being an adult, but shit, I know I gotta at least try to apply for some jobs.
  Every time I try to, though, I get to my resume, look over it a bit, and just... stop? I just
  can't find the motivation. I'm a fucking loser, I swear.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)13:25:16 No.

  >>3209861
  Same, I can relate too

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)13:42:01 No.

  >>3209867
  What part of the US do you live in?

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)14:02:17 No.

  >>3209767
  You are 25 Anon, your life isn't over. Your advice is good, use it. Make something of yourself.
  Find people who care about you. Live

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)14:32:13 No.

  I've been fairly quiet about how I've been feeling for a while /f/ bu reading you replies has
  been hitting me like a ton of bricks.
  I am 17 days away from being 20 and I am a mess. I'm so afraid of life.
  Growing up I was the smart,attractive, leader that everyone expecting great things from.
  I got bumped up a grade, all the girls liked me, the guys wanted to be me..and I remained humble.
  Things were good. It felt real. Although this really fucked with my work ethic because I didn't
  feel like I had to work for anything. slowly things fell apart.
  >Mom got hooked on prescription drugs
  >Cheated on my dad and O.D'd
  >My dad spiraled out of control. Not a functional parent anymore.
  >I started to gain alot of weight
  >My little ego in my brain was just caving in on itself.

  I lost that weight by grade 10/11 but my self confidence was already gone.
  I started smoking weed and stopped going to school. Didnt graduate.
  Anxiety and depression is at an all time high.
  All i wanted from life was to change peoples lives.
  I wanted to be a film director.
  Mold the youth.
  Now I am on the verge of killing myself any day.
  I think about it alot at night.
  Help me please

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)14:34:19 No.

  >>3209889
  I feel so much responsibility to be great.
  but I'm afraid these feelings are going to be holding me prisoner for a lot longer than I have.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)14:37:24 No.

  So what is it?

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)14:57:24 No.

  ITT: feels

  Hold on peeps, time only moves forward, keep it going, experience anything

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)15:03:18 No.

  >>3209866
  >>3209809
  >>3209731
  Stop shilling your fucking drugs.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)15:10:33 No.

  [blogposts externally]

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)15:24:10 No.

  >>3209849
  Man, I'm not the only one.
  It's kind of amazing, when I talk to my parents they say stuff like "Haha I remember this one
  time I was speeding and managed to lose the cops when I was your age!"

  They've done so much in their lives, and I've done literally fuck all. I've sat in my room, on
  4chan, playing videogames and watching anime.
  I never had any of the "teenage experiences" like my parents.
  I've done fucking nothing with my life. Was it because my parents weren't really involved? Maybe.
  I remember when I was a kid my parents did all sorts of shit like boy scouts with my brother, or
  girls scouts with my sister, but I never did any of that. I was just kind of left to my own
  devices, not being the daughter my Dad wanted, and not being the eldest son my Mom wanted. I'm
  the awkward middle child with no aspirations and no drive.
  I think about killing myself everyday. One of these days it'll stop being a thought.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)15:51:05 No.

  After a month on a major tranquilizer anti-psychotic for treatment of schizophrenia and low mood
  bipolar disorder, my life is turned around. I just bagged an 800 dollar academic scholarship and
  I haven't suspected the mailman of human trafficking once. I can sleep at night, and I'm
  connecting with the people in my life. If you're smart enough to read the DSM-V you know yourself
  better than anyone and it's time to find out why you're fucked up and failing at life. *Getting
  treatment sooner rather than later will keep you out of asylum..>> LPT

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)16:12:29 No.

  I found out something after playing PC for most of my life.

  I feel like whenever I take large amounts of time off of the computer (School activities, so on
  and so forth) I find myself in a better mood and a greater need to get stuff done in my life. But
  whenever I (inevitably) get on my PC to play games, watch youtube videos, or browse 4chan, I
  start getting into fits of depression and I beat myself about how my life will lead me nowhere
  and that I have no clue what I'm going to do for a career while being way past the point of
  knowing what you want to be. It confuses me how something I enjoy makes me feel so bad about
  myself. I'm a musician, I practice a lot, I don't really do school work but when I always score
  well on exams and pay attention to my professors so I have a B average. So why do I feel like
  garbage?

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)16:31:41 No.

  >>3209892
  FOUR NAKED WHITE HOLES

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)16:48:54 No.

  >>3209917
  Are you saying we should switch to Mac?

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)16:52:09 No.

  Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit...

  Guys, guys... I don't know what the fucks up, I don't know where to vent all this anger. I'm the
  anon who complained long about why we all suck, cause of bad parenting and cause we failed to get
  in the cool kids clique.

  Please help me. More shits came up, and right at the same time... Gonna list the two main ones.

  First of my mother got hospitalized today, and they might amputate her leg (she has lot of
  unhealthy habits, like smoking, being somewhat overweight), some artery got clogged in her leg,
  and no blood is going through. How do I deal with this? I haven't talk to my mother as of now,
  and I hate to go to hospitals. I don't really know what to do. I love my mother as a mother, but
  I'm somewhat angry at the fact she doesn't know how to raise children and because of that me and
  my brother became complete anti-social shut-ins, (but we're smart and do good in national
  competitions) but I haven't really comforted her on that side, and I don't know what to do know.

  The other problem just simply makes me experience anger on a level I have never experienced it
  before. As I talked about the "cool" kids, apparently some school bully thinks he can bite back
  on me. So apparently this goes back a long time as you'd expect, but the thing is today this said
  "cool" kids clique had a fit with me. There are three of them, but there is one asshole, one
  spineless little smug fucker, who for no reason is trying to ruin my life, and has failed so far.
  So far.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)16:56:07 No.

  >>3209917
  Solution:

  Install a firewall / HOSTS block 4chan, youtube and any other time wasting sites and Get Shit
  Done on the PC.

  Allocate your time better.
  Get a scheduling program, TODO list program, whatever. Or app if you prefer.
  Allocate things to do in those periods you allocate for learning or doing.
  If you don't achieve a reasonable outcome in that period? You don't remove the block.

  Flexible schedules can seriously help if you lack self-control.
  Allocating time to learn, to exercise, to practice a hobby, to laugh and then relax, all help get
  natural structure in your life.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)16:56:53 No.

  >>3209929
  idk what to say about the 3 people bothering you but i would recommend going to the hospital to
  see your mother. worst case scenario you might regret not doing it.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)17:13:12 No.

  >>3209929
  So far, but might succeed now. So apparently these fuckers, as usual, thought they could just
  ruin my day by insulting me, etc, etc, and one of them just thought it'd be funny if he started
  hitting me (which is not rare), so I just decided that I'd have none of his shit anymore and just
  instinctively decided to slap him. Nothing really happened after that, I just walked away and
  didn't see those fuckers the rest of the day.
  So the smug fucking fucker who is a spoiled little shit, DESPITE ME NOT SNITCHING ON HIM ONCE,
  decides to tell the teachers about how "Anon was so aggressive, he hit this kid. We shouldn't
  resort to violence!" kind of bullshit. I'm on very good terms with the teachers so of course they
  didn't believe him, but because of school regulations and shit they are gonna do some bullshit
  "Anti-bullying procedures" ON ME. Being an anti-social honour student this shit bothers me.
  I plan to go all the way with that fucker. I'd like some tips on how to ruin someone's life. If I
  fail in ruining his life and I'd like to end it all, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna end it in a way to
  finish it for him and attempt to get up on the "High school hero". I have anger management
  issues, but I think that can be traced back to elementary bulling; so now, apparently I just want
  to do well in my studies, and remain the "same", but I just want to ruin this fuckers life, as
  much as I can without anyone suspecting me. Can you anons help me with tips?

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)17:16:25 No.

  >>3209930
  Thanks anon, appreciate the help.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)17:18:18 No.

  >>3209929
  >mother is suffering from her poor choices
  >How do I deal with this
  Do you-
  >some school bully thinks he can bite back on me
  Your age is clear and you might want to steer away from this site for a while.
  Alright, I think that you should talk to your brother and mother about this, sharing feelings is
  healthy, even if those feelings aren't nice.

  You should at least go to see your mom in the hospital. Show up, stay for maybe an hour, talk to
  her or watch something, just be there for her.

  >>3209936
  Just suck it up and be the better man. If they know it wasn't you and you know it wasn't you,
  what are you losing? Swallow your pride. In ten years nobody you know is going to care that 'some
  kids started shit with me in high school and I talked to a counselor about it" If you have anger
  management issues, then maybe talking to this counselor will help you.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)17:21:22 No.

  >>3209937
  Helped me get out a fucking huge rut I fell in to years back.
  Wrote a very basic scheduler that split up my interests in to discrete groups of time.
  15,30,60 minute chunks have worked best for my variety of tasks from:
  electronics, drawing, gaming
  music, 3D modelling, web development
  meditation, exercise, and so on.
  Just a short list.

  Also some other learning stuff on longer term.
  These are allocated to monthly and bi-yearly segments, both a physical and mental task.
  I'm going to learn to juggle and throw my voice next month. Fun times.

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)17:24:56 No.

  /f/ is a place for suffering

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)17:25:52 No.

  >>3209938
  The fact that I note that I'm in high school definitely makes my age clear.
  Anyway, thanks... You're right, I should chill.
  I was thinking about visiting the school psychologist. I just... Don't know how to feel...?

>> [_] Anonymous 02/01/17(Wed)17:28:13 No.

  >>3209711
  >>3209899
  >>3209902
  >>3209942
  Someone needs to archive this thread, and show it to other boards, when they say "/f/ is just
  shitposting".