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[_] :( Anon 3510074 feeling real lonely and lost recently. don't know what my purpose is or what I really want in life. there's this constant sad tenderness near my heart that I can't control. How do you find purpose and what you want?
>> [_] Anon 3510094 I feel kind of lost too. I just sleep all day and spend all night in my room... I think I have a kind of longing for something greater- some purpose like you mentioned. Right now I feel as though I am waiting for something to change, but it hasn't in a while. I think I am stagnating. So I guess my purpose is just to wait. And I hope you can wait to, because I am at least a little hopeful that my life will change for the better.
>> [_] Anon 3510095 Also, recently I rediscovered trance and honestly it's one of the things keeping me hopeful right now. It is so beautiful when I need something beautiful so bad https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZmhTiqH 3gk
>> [_] Anon 3510096 >># thanks for posting this. i don't listen to trance but this is a musical reminder that things are gonna be alright.
>> [_] Anon 3510107 >># >># >># Are you literally me? Been there as well. Heck even wish I still was rather. The only real thing that brought me joy and a sense of purpose that I ever found at a young age already was playing video games. Too bad they really fell off in the last two decades and time to play them ran ever shorter. If you're looking for an honest opinion on how to find those things, there isn't any more real way than just to go out and experience the world, try out things, try to connect with other people, even if all you ever want to do is sit alone at home and browse the web. Just keep a healthy lifestyle, good sleep schedule, workouts, social interactions, not negelcting your housekeeping. Try to improve things and not just silently suffer from them. Try to involve yourself with others' lives as much as possible. Throw at the wall until you hit anything. And even if you don't you lived your life trying to achieve it and not just running away from it. Your world ends with you, anons. If everything you want and do is wallow in pity and bitterness with everyone online (and being only online only ever ends this way, even if you don't actively seek it out), then this is the reality you made for yourself. I know it's easy and nice a lot of the time, but it will never lead to anything more than just that. You don't have any destined purpose in life or anything grand like that. You can just make the active decision that some random thing (you probably find kinda neat) will henceforth become your purpose in life until further notice. And the connections you make along that way.
>> [_] Anon 3510109 >># Are you content with stagnation and waiting? I think my desire for finding purpose or what I want in life, and not being able to find that, causes me to suffer. And stagnating in that place seems to amplify the suffering for me. >># Why do you wish you were still here? For what its worth, I have a relatively healthy lifestyle on paper, but still suffer from my inability to find meaning or fulfillment on a day to day basis. It feels like I'm constantly trying to find distractions to obtain momentary happiness, just to end up back at a place of discontent. Thank you both for sharing. Relating to and hearing the experiences and thoughts of anons on this board does make my world just slightly better, so I appreciate yall.
>> [_] Anon 3510112 >># You're right and it's daunting to change this. Easing into the outside world would be much less imposing if I had someone who I knew already. It's like trying to get a job -- it helps to know someone already employed there who can vouch for you instead of being the weird newbie. I spent 10 years being angry for no reason, ages 12-22, angry when I was spending time with others and angry when I was by myself. Now at 26 I've chilled out but don't have anyone around me. That's what I get though. /blog
>> [_] Anon 3510152 >># >># >Why do you wish you were still here? It doesn't really get better in my experience. Especially if you're not content with completely changing yourself over. I am an old ass anon and I always will be at heart no matter what. I think I could more easily accept that than the mundanity and cruelty of "normal life". I really liked my neet lifestyle. You can do it justice if you did it right (which let's be real you probably won't). At least you can suffer in peace at your own pace by yourself. I had it pretty neat. Sure it was boring, meaningless and lonely at times, but still, working a kinda meaningless job and putting up with the people there... idk, it just doesn't feel much better to me. I wish I could be doing whatever all day long again and agonize over what that may be, but in the end I suppose the grass is just always greener on the other side. Life sucks and you can just ride to the end. Also, feels nice to relate, you have a nice day too anon. It gets better and it gets worse, just try to outlive the bad days.

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>> [_] Anon 3483587 Pretty good. Good messages 'hidden' in the resizes too.

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>> [_] Anon 3465124 One day I will watch NHK again. One day. For sure. Certainly.

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>> [_] Anon 3440833 >># how would I ever be able to forget, OP? everyday day in day out
>> [_] Anon 3440884 >># I don't remember pls tell me
>> [_] Anon 3440887 >># Harmonica kid from Cowboy Bebop
>> [_] gravelord 3440891 >># Resize window
>> [_] Anon 3440996 will NHK ever stop being so kino?
>> [_] gravelord 3440998 >># As long as it remains relatable I don't see it not being kino ever