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[_] :( Anonymous 07/13/24(Sat)20:53:45 No.

  feeling real lonely and lost recently. don't know what my purpose is or what I really want in
  life. there's this constant sad tenderness near my heart that I can't control. How do you find
  purpose and what you want?

>> [_] Anonymous 07/14/24(Sun)07:56:27 No.

  I feel kind of lost too. I just sleep all day and spend all night in my room... I think I have a
  kind of longing for something greater- some purpose like you mentioned. Right now I feel as
  though I am waiting for something to change, but it hasn't in a while. I think I am stagnating.
  So I guess my purpose is just to wait. And I hope you can wait to, because I am at least a little
  hopeful that my life will change for the better.

>> [_] Anonymous 07/14/24(Sun)07:59:06 No.

  Also, recently I rediscovered trance and honestly it's one of the things keeping me hopeful right
  now. It is so beautiful when I need something beautiful so bad

  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZmhTiqH3gk

>> [_] Anonymous 07/14/24(Sun)08:04:35 No.

  >>3510095
  thanks for posting this. i don't listen to trance but this is a musical reminder that things are
  gonna be alright.

>> [_] Anonymous 07/14/24(Sun)09:16:19 No.

  >>3510095
  >>3510094
  >>3510074
  Are you literally me?
  Been there as well. Heck even wish I still was rather.
  The only real thing that brought me joy and a sense of purpose that I ever found at a young age
  already was playing video games.
  Too bad they really fell off in the last two decades and time to play them ran ever shorter.

  If you're looking for an honest opinion on how to find those things, there isn't any more real
  way than just to go out and experience the world, try out things, try to connect with other
  people, even if all you ever want to do is sit alone at home and browse the web.
  Just keep a healthy lifestyle, good sleep schedule, workouts, social interactions, not negelcting
  your housekeeping. Try to improve things and not just silently suffer from them. Try to involve
  yourself with others' lives as much as possible. Throw at the wall until you hit anything. And
  even if you don't you lived your life trying to achieve it and not just running away from it.

  Your world ends with you, anons.
  If everything you want and do is wallow in pity and bitterness with everyone online (and being
  only online only ever ends this way, even if you don't actively seek it out), then this is the
  reality you made for yourself.
  I know it's easy and nice a lot of the time, but it will never lead to anything more than just
  that.

  You don't have any destined purpose in life or anything grand like that.
  You can just make the active decision that some random thing (you probably find kinda neat) will
  henceforth become your purpose in life until further notice. And the connections you make along
  that way.

>> [_] Anonymous 07/14/24(Sun)11:25:50 No.

  >>3510094
  Are you content with stagnation and waiting? I think my desire for finding purpose or what I want
  in life, and not being able to find that, causes me to suffer. And stagnating in that place seems
  to amplify the suffering for me.

  >>3510107
  Why do you wish you were still here?
  For what its worth, I have a relatively healthy lifestyle on paper, but still suffer from my
  inability to find meaning or fulfillment on a day to day basis. It feels like I'm constantly
  trying to find distractions to obtain momentary happiness, just to end up back at a place of
  discontent.

  Thank you both for sharing. Relating to and hearing the experiences and thoughts of anons on this
  board does make my world just slightly better, so I appreciate yall.

>> [_] Anonymous 07/14/24(Sun)12:47:07 No.

  >>3510107
  You're right and it's daunting to change this. Easing into the outside world would be much less
  imposing if I had someone who I knew already. It's like trying to get a job -- it helps to know
  someone already employed there who can vouch for you instead of being the weird newbie.
  I spent 10 years being angry for no reason, ages 12-22, angry when I was spending time with
  others and angry when I was by myself. Now at 26 I've chilled out but don't have anyone around
  me. That's what I get though. /blog

>> [_] Anonymous 07/15/24(Mon)18:27:27 No.

  >>3510109
  >>3510112
  >Why do you wish you were still here?
  It doesn't really get better in my experience. Especially if you're not content with completely
  changing yourself over. I am an old ass anon and I always will be at heart no matter what. I
  think I could more easily accept that than the mundanity and cruelty of "normal life".
  I really liked my neet lifestyle. You can do it justice if you did it right (which let's be real
  you probably won't).
  At least you can suffer in peace at your own pace by yourself. I had it pretty neat. Sure it was
  boring, meaningless and lonely at times, but still, working a kinda meaningless job and putting
  up with the people there... idk, it just doesn't feel much better to me. I wish I could be doing
  whatever all day long again and agonize over what that may be, but in the end I suppose the grass
  is just always greener on the other side.
  Life sucks and you can just ride to the end.

  Also, feels nice to relate, you have a nice day too anon. It gets better and it gets worse, just
  try to outlive the bad days.