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[_] POST AMVs A MASSIVE FAGGOT 05/22/16(Sun)21:08:02 No.

  So.. yeah. I'm losing myself these days and I'm barely clinging to life.

  I'm a mtf trans woman, been on hormones for a year and a half and I can't stop hating myself for
  everything I've done in my days as a guy (I'm 27, almost 28) and I can't stop thinking of myself
  in male terms.

  I don't know why, my entire life my deepest wish was that I was born a woman, but now that I'm
  actually working towards that in a way I don't actually feel any better. Well, I guess not ANY
  better, I do feel good at times, they are just super rare. Usually I just hate myself because I
  still look like a guy when I look at myself in the mirror, I still see my old self and I fucking
  hate him so much.

  So, yeah. I don't know what to do. I have a general therapist, no gender therapist or anything
  like that, but we've only been seeing each other about a month now, maybe a little more. I
  fluctuate between super depressed and hypomanic all day long, I battle suicidal ideations EVERY
  DAY along with plenty of urges to self harm. I don't know what to do anymore folks.

  Half of me wants to kill myself just to get out of this misery and the other half hopes and
  wishes for a better future while doing nothing to make it happen.

  I dunno... any advice is welcome, I'm just so fucking lost in this world.

  penis

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>> [_] Anonymous 05/22/16(Sun)21:19:10 No.

  Anime sauce?

>> [_] Anonymous 05/22/16(Sun)21:27:58 No.

  >>3085960
  Boku no pico

>> [_] Anonymous 05/22/16(Sun)21:39:04 No.

  >>3085969
  >yfw what's usually the dismissive sarcastic answer to sauce begging turns out to actually be the
  truth
  WE'VE COME FULL CIRCLE GUYS

  >>3085953
  In my experience, I've always had to come to terms with realities of my situation before I could
  decide what the best course of action was. Typically when dealing with suicidal people, it's not
  that they want to die, but they want a way of getting away from their problems.

  Some realities of your situation: do you biologically have an XY or XX chromosome? If born male,
  your bone structure is going to be male; not much you can do about that.

  >I don't know why, my entire life my deepest wish was that I was born a woman

  This is probably the most important thing you need to know. If you don't understand why you
  wanted this, you don't have the foundation for coming to terms with your situation.

>> [_] A MASSIVE FAGGOT 05/22/16(Sun)21:43:26 No.

  >>3085979

  This is a place to discuss topics about visual or graphic design. Requests for photoshopping or
  free work go on /wsr/ - Worksafe Requests or /r/ - Adult Requests as appropriate.

  #/gd/ @ irc.rizon.net
  #4chan-gd @ irc.freenode.net
  http://graphicdesign.wikia.com/

  >What literature should I read to get into graphic design?
  The sidebar on the /gd/ wiki has plenty of book reccomendations.

  >What programs do I need to get started?
  -Vector
  Adobe Illustrator
  Corel Draw
  Inkskape

  -Bitmap
  Adobe Photoshop
  Gimp

  -3d
  Blender
  Cinema4d

  >Which program is the best for X?
  It's usually subjective if you pick a program in each of the right categories above. Use vector
  programs if your making a logo/icon/illustraton, use bitmap programs if you're messing with a
  photo or stock image. Gimp, Inkskape, and Blender are free alternatives and have the same
  function as the paid programs but the paid programs tend to be used more in a professional
  enviroment.

  >What font is used in this image?
  Try these sites before posting a tread asking for fonts:
  http://whatthefont.com/
  http://www.identifont.com/identify.html
  >>

  >Can somebody photoshop X? Can somebody make me a logo?
  All requests for photoshopping belong on /wsr/ - Worksafe Requests or /r/ - Adult Requests. /gd/
  doesn't take requests or do free or even paid work sometimes. However, if you're new at
  something, asking "HOW can I X?" rather than "CAN YOU make X?" will give you better results.

  >Can I post some of my work for critique?
  There is usally a critique/What-Are-You-Working-On thread, and that is where work for critique go.

  >Can somebody find [font]?
  http://www.mediafire.com/download/027xjs3ujvyqxmd/Fonts.zip
  also check out your local torrent site or the font-share thread.
  Remember to share and not just take. Also remember that using liscensed fonts in commercial works
  is a bad idea.

  >Where can I find inspiration?
  http://www.behance.net/
  http://dribbble.com/
  http://graphicdesign.wikia.com/wiki/Inspiration

>> [_] Anonymous 05/22/16(Sun)22:04:50 No.

  >>3085979
  I for one appreciate your thoughtful response but judging from >>3085877
  A MASSIVE FAGGOT is just copy-pasting stuff to post today

  Dunno why, you probably figured that out anyways

>> [_] Anonymous 05/22/16(Sun)23:08:49 No.

  >>3085983
  You really do live up to your name.

>> [_] Anonymous 05/22/16(Sun)23:29:35 No.

  Boku No Pico will forever be that one series that I can fap to despite being straight.

>> [_] Anonymous 05/23/16(Mon)00:00:00 No.

  Song name?

>> [_] Anonymous 05/23/16(Mon)00:04:26 No.

  >>3086047
  i only fap to the tortured responses of people being forced to watch this show.

>> [_] Anonymous 05/23/16(Mon)00:35:53 No.

  >>3085953
  you are right about one thing, suicidal people usually don't want to die they just can't/don't
  know how to deal with their pain. often its just small shit they just can't let go of or forgive
  themselves for. and usually its repeating intrusive thoughts once the pattern sets in its hard to
  break. So OP I do have a question for you.. did you have an absentee father or domineering mother?

>> [_] Anonymous 05/23/16(Mon)00:37:05 No.

  >>3085953
  National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
  1 (800) 273-8255

  https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/

  https://www.reddit.com/r/jobs/

>> [_] Anonymous 05/23/16(Mon)01:08:33 No.

  Asserting that OP isn't copypasting,

  I'm about where you are, minus a few years. 22, just started hormones, been fairly depressed for
  the past few years. I've got some manly-ass bonestructure, including a fucking neanderthal
  forehead. I wish I could give you some advice regarding permanent (or "permanent") solutions to
  the depression, but I really can't. One of the things that's really gotten me through these past
  couple months has been, oddly enough, following the republican Primaries, and taking courage from
  The Donald. That basterd can put up with everything they throw at him, and not break a sweat, and
  I see that, and I know that I can too.

  Stay strong, sister.