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[_] Happy Friday Night Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)01:10:47 No.3092961
How's your Friday going, /f/? I'm lying here shitposting and contemplating how to end it.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)01:19:21 No.3092967
>>3092961
Nothing especial, just shitposting in /co/ and wondering what the hell am I going to do with my
life now that I dropped out of college.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)01:32:52 No.3092973
>>3092961
As an extremely-new fag, is my input welcome?
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)01:55:16 No.3092985
>>3092973
Yes, /f/ is pretty newfag friendly despite the constant insults. How new are you?
>>3092961
>contemplating how to end it
Why is this, and what do you have planned?
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)03:14:59 No.3093025
>>3092985
I'm just unhappy and I really don't like being this unhappy, especially considering how long I've
been unhappy. I have a lot planned, but not too many ways to follow through with said plans.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)03:19:40 No.3093028
>>3093025
>I'm just unhappy and I really don't like being this unhappy
Just keep going trying to not think about it and your sadness and anxiety will become dullness.
How old are you?
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)04:00:40 No.3093038
>>3093028
21, I've been telling myself that it'll just go away or dumb itself down for years now. It just
gets worse.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)04:21:24 No.3093042
>>3093038
I'm 21 too, escapism is the only thing that keeps me sane but I know it isn't healthy. I probably
need a psychologist but the thought of sharing my problems with another person terrifies me.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)04:25:27 No.3093043
>>3093042
I know exactly how you feel, I'm in an incredibly similar situation in terms of finding help. I
hope things work out for you, anon.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)04:34:46 No.3093046
>>3093042
well you just shared your thoughts with the internet
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)04:39:39 No.3093052
>>3093043
Thanks, the same thing for you.
>>3093046
It's different. I don't know you guys, there isn't any compromise, I'll never interact with you
again, I don't have to say anything out loud and it's in my own terms so I don't have to leave my
comfort zone.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)04:42:49 No.3093054
>>3093052
Is there a root to your unhappiness?
No friends, job, existential crisis?
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)04:48:18 No.3093059
Oh and if you are still there OP I'd be fine continuing this thread in the 4plebs archive. I
think that suicide is very rarely the answer and emotional stress can warp judgement.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)04:51:13 No.3093061
>>3093054
Introversion, social awkwardness, the fact I'm a lazy sack of shit that is unable to stay
focused, fear of change and reluctance to sharing my feelings or asking for help.
I know things could get better with some effort, but I'm unable to do it and feel like garbage
because that, so I keep myself distracted to keep the suicidal thoughts away.
>>3093059
>I think that suicide is very rarely the answer and emotional stress can warp judgement.
True.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)05:06:16 No.3093065
>>3093061
Mental problems are way more difficult to deal with and I always keep on finding myself saying
"Just do it!"
That's not how your problems should be approached.
Do you have any mental conditions besides what you've listed, I know personally that autism has a
tendency to form a routine that is hard to break out and do new things. Is that something you do?
Autims/aspbergers also overlaps with a few other of the traits you listed, namely introversion,
social awkwardness, fear of change and sharing. Are you unfocused because you've fallen into a
routine and won't change it to accommodate those other focuses?
I would suggest start organizing your life by doing such-and-such action but that wouldn't help
the root of the problem.
Are you just weak when it comes to self-discipline or do you just deep down feel that the other
aspects of your life you're not focusing on are unimportant?
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)05:08:35 No.3093066
>>3093065
Oh and as a note don't be too self-depreciating with your posts, be honest but you don't need to
be a masochist.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)05:16:53 No.3093068
>>3093065
I'm 90% sure I don't have autism, and I often try new things but I quickly lose interest. I'm
just really bad with interpersonal relationships, I can act normally around others in
professional settings and around strangers but when they start knowing me or recognizing me I
begin to avoid them.
>I would suggest start organizing your life
I've tried to organize my life a lot of times, but I always give up or find an excuse to go back
to my old ways. At this point I know I can't do it alone, but I can't bring myself to asking for
help.
>Are you just weak when it comes to self-discipline or do you just deep down feel that the other
aspects of your life you're not focusing on are unimportant?
Both, I think.
>>3093066
It's hard to not be self-depreciating when you're so self-aware and have a very low self-esteem.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)05:16:55 No.3093069
>>3092961
I was feeling like shit today, but then you uploaded one of my flashes and I feel great again
>But anon, how do I know it's your flash? You don't have a tripcode, nor do you have a name. So
what the fuck are you talking about?
all the flashes that have under them sauce in usually orange text, divided by those vertical
lines, were done by me
also I still have the .fla after almost a year I made this which surprises me
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)05:34:10 No.3093072
>>3093068
>I'm 90% sure I don't have autism
Alright, I'll take your word for it. It just sounded really similar to what you described. You
could take http://psychcentral.com/quizzes/autism.htm if you have any suspicions.
>I've tried to organize my life a lot of times, but I always give up or find an excuse to go back
to my old ways. At this point I know I can't do it alone, but I can't bring myself to asking for
help.
Yeah that's what I thought would happen from what you said about your lack of focus.
Any details on what you did to try and organize?
What excuses did you use?
>Both, I think.
I might need some more details on what you're neglecting.
I think strengthening your self discipline is key here. I wouldn't know anything resources off
hand but self help might not cut it.
>It's hard to not be self-depreciating when you're so self-aware and have a very low self-esteem.
Can I ask what do you do that makes you happy, if anything? From the picture you painted it
sounded like you were distracting yourself with media that was meaningless to you.
Are you having an existential crisis along the lines of "What's the point of it all? I should
just end it."
If you're unhappy maybe it's because you don't have a hobby or some goal that you work towards? >>
3093069 over here makes/made flashes and enjoyed sharing his creations with strangers.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)05:37:16 No.3093073
Posting the archive link. I think threads get old at around 5 to 5.5 hours?
http://archive.4plebs.org/f/thread/3092961/
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)05:41:28 No.3093077
>>3093073
the thread goes old after 25 flashes get posted after this one, then it dies after 30th flash
gets posted
it's called pruning
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)05:43:42 No.3093079
>>3093077
Interesting. It's the only board to have the timed format; I've never asked about it so I assumed
it was based on actual time passing.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)05:58:40 No.3093084
>>3093072
>Any details on what you did to try and organize?
I tried a lot of things: keeping diaries, plaining my schedule, doing exercise, trying to change
my routine, taking courses online, no fap, learning parkour, going to museums and libraries,
learning arts and crafts, etc. But every time something didn't go according the plan, or things
got too hard I started getting bored and stopped after a while.
>What excuses did you use?
The usual "it's hopeless" mindset or I got distracted with other things, and most of the time I
have a free day my mother makes me do errands so I used that as an excuse to skip what I had
planned for the day.
>Can I ask what do you do that makes you happy, if anything?
I enjoy myself all the time, I only get anxious and depressed when I have to face reality.
>From the picture you painted it sounded like you were distracting yourself with media that was
meaningless to you.
It only becomes meaningless to me after a while, when I already have moved on to something new.
>Are you having an existential crisis along the lines of "What's the point of it all? I should
just end it."
Something like that. I just don't know what to do with my life, but I feel pressured by my mother
and my grandmother to become someone important when I don't mind living a simple life, because
I'm pretty smart and they feel I have a big potential and they don't want me to end up being a
loser like my grandfather.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)06:31:03 No.3093093
>>3093084
>Something like that. I just don't know what to do with my life,
Have you looked into absurdism? You might do well to incorporate it as a philosophy for your life.
>I feel pressured by my mother and my grandmother to become someone important when I don't mind
living a simple life, because I'm pretty smart and they feel I have a big potential.
From above it sounded like you don't talk to anyone you know. I'm sure they are just doing what
they think is best for you, rationalizing anything that seems to go out of step. Have you
communicated any of your goals in life to them? Do you have any?
>They don't want me to end up being a loser like my grandfather.
Is he still alive? Try talking to him about it if he is. What about his life leads you to
describe him as a loser?
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)06:32:04 No.3093094
>>3093093
Could you tell me a little bit more about your family?
What is the living arrangement? Do you all live in the same house? Are you living with your
parents? Which ones? Who do you regularly see in a day? Are you in school or some other program?
Anything else that's relevant which you feel you should include.
Do you have an hobbies?
>But every time something didn't go according the plan, or things got too hard I started getting
bored and stopped after a while.
It sounds like you only enjoy doing things that make you enjoy, except for when your mother makes
you do errands or something like that. That's a rather pleasure oriented life, you don't have
yourself experience anything difficult to overcome, nothing to accomplish that would help you
build your self esteem.
>I enjoy myself all the time, I only get anxious and depressed when I have to face reality.
I'll just assume you watch tv/play video games.
Do you have any passions you can name?
As a note about self-esteem, it's not something you can get from other people. Your mother or
family could set goals and manage your life but any of those you achieve will feel empty unless
you wanted to achieve them. Making your life what you want and not for someone else can help you
feel better about yourself.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)06:39:59 No.3093095
>>3093093
>>3093094
It's almost six am and I have to go to sleep. I (maybe) will talk to you guys later in 4plebs
when I wake up.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)06:43:03 No.3093096
>>3093095
Alright. It's 3 here so I might as sleep too. I hoped this helped even just a little. I'll keep
the 4plebs thread open for a while, don't expect a quick response if you do post there.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)06:45:07 No.3093097
/f/ is the nicest board
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)07:04:17 No.3093101
>>>/adv/
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)07:48:41 No.3093107
>>3092961
If you had the guts to end it you would have already done it long ago nerd.
>>3093059
>I think that suicide is very rarely the answer
Suicide is nearly always a viable answer to most problems.
>> [_] Anonymous 06/04/16(Sat)08:47:56 No.3093114
Don't give up anons, we're all going to make it!
