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[_] It's been awhile /f/gts hope you are well :v 3507317 Things aren't great but what's new. I'm in another new city for another job Eating leftover take away because this podunk shithole rolls up the sidewalks at like 9pm How are you /f/? are you eating well? Sleeping? In the past year I've: >Got in trouble with the IRS twice >made a good chunk of money >lost a good chunk of money being a degenerate >lost my gold star status >Stopped drinking >starting micro dosing LSD (110% recommend) >started doing more ketamine than a horse with a bad knee For an old washed up /f/gt life isn't too bad I guess. Jazz band people I jammed with invited me back. Learning more about playing real instruments >Am pretty bad at it still but there's plenty of time to learn. >New tracks will actually have real recorded instruments Side bar: Any Aussie cunts around /f/? I got a job offer but it's in STRAYA and I don't know fuck all about living in the upside-down. Marked for deletion (old).
>> [_] Anon 3507318 >How are you /f/? are you eating well? Sleeping? Neither But hang in there :v , im sure things will turn up.
>> [_] Anon 3507319 good job quitting booze bossman :)
>> [_] :v 3507320 >># Things are actually pretty good desu. Stupid, yes. Bad? Eh. "Fuck it we ball"
>> [_] Anon 3507323 quit food delivery in an effort to eat better. trying to quit weed for the month so sleep has been shit. kinda interested in micro dosing shrooms/lsd. love the time I've spent down under, would recommend
>> [_] Anon 3507336 I don't what I'm doing to be honest. Sitting here knowing I should be programming to make up the fact that I have no plans for yet another Saturday, but maybe I'll play some solo Helldivers 2 instead. Why do you recommend micro dosing LSD? What makes it different than just "dosing" it?
>> [_] Anon 3507337 >># I feel empty :/
>> [_] :v 3507339 >># Try shoving things in holes. Works for me
>> [_] Anon 3507340 >># I'm good, jobless but good. I started a video game podcast. Glad to see you still kicking!
>> [_] Anon 3507341 I exist I guess. Looking for a job but I really don't want to work again. What's the difference between wasting your time online or wasting it at work? I'm thinking of greener pastures but I don't know how to get to them... yet. Moving abroad, far away... I don't know.
>> [_] Anon 3507343 >># Simple. Don't get a job. Rather waste it away online. It's the same thing but at your own leisure. If you crave human interaction that much get a cost-light or free hobby and bum around with society there. Working a job is just meaningless suffering meant to distract you from life. I'd rather games and anime do that.
>> [_] John Moses Browning 3507344 >># Literally the same actually, but my family is getting older and sicker unfortunately
>> [_] Anon 3507345 >># I got a killer sunburn all over my body right now from working outside all week. Life has pretty much just been work and sleep but I'm trying to slip in some time for my hobbies. I should be focusing on those hobbies right now while I can, but the little voice in the back of my head told me to visit /f/ today. I always visit /f/ on the weekend. I don't know if it's for nostalgia, or if it's just comforting to visit a small, quiet community like this on a saturday morning. I love all you guys, cheers
>> [_] Anon 3507346 What does microdosing LSD really help with does it really do anything or is it one of those so imperceptible it ia probably just placebo things
>> [_] :v 3507347 >># >># At first it was supposed to help with PTSD and anxiety. It really didn't do much besides give me a nice trip and a really good nap. Now it's basically recreational medically sanctioned psychedelic usage. Ketamine? That's just death lite. Free trail of decorporialization. That's my coma and couch ride or die rn. That or edibles but where I'm at now Ketamine is easier to get. I accept the fact that I'm self medicating and it's risky but for the past year being off the mountain of Rx I was on and just using these as needed I'm actually making progress. The Ketamine treatments are expensive though but it's entirely just a way for rich tech bros to legally do K... That's how I got into it.
>> [_] Anon 3507348 >># I always thought psychedelic drugs were something to avoid if you have post-traumatic stress. I'm definitely noticing the rise of people using them to help their mental distress, and now the therapeutic industry is interested in prescribing substances such as lysergic acid diethylamide to people with PTSD. I myself have diagnosed PTSD from a horribly traumatic event that occurred in my teenhood, and pretty much everyone I know, including my mother whose dropped acid many times throughout her life, told me to stay the fuck away from psychedelics for that reason alone. Any time I expressed interest in trying them, I was told that it would mentally break me because I harbor such trauma deep in the back of my mind. As I am now, what happened to me then rarely bothers me, and I don't have nightmares anymore like I used to. If there's even a slight chance that taking a drug could bring back all the horror, and undo all my mental progress, then I'm definitely staying the fuck away. Personally, the only drugs I've ever wanted to try were mushrooms and molly, but besides my reasoning above, I don't really feel like going through a dealer, and I'm not social/cool enough to have any druggie friends I could score free psychedelics off of.
>> [_] :v 3507352 >># I have a good deal of trauma from an abusive religious family and my being a huge fgt. I was also worried but really, my trips were nothing like the Hollywood and media portrayal. I was fully aware of who I was where I was but I could feel myself kind of letting go a bit if that makes sense? I was actually able to touch those memories and thoughts without having such a strong reaction. It was like a buffer between me and the trauma. I also had calm space and monitors. Also a giant bean bag chair and music.
>> [_] John Moses Browning 3507354 >># Really sorry to hear that Chair sounds nice tho
>> [_] Anon 3507358 >># Wait, was the answer to >Why do you recommend micro dosing LSD? that it gives a nice trip and a good nap? I thought micro dosing was when you take less than what you need for tripping.
>> [_] :v 3507364 >># Mind melting trips no. Comfortable warm fuzzy with little sparkles and melty bits yeah. It's not a peyote trip out in the desert ya know? It's more like a lil bit of mental lidocaine.
>> [_] Anon 3507365 >># Having never tried anything but alcohol I have no idea what you just said.
>> [_] :v 3507368 >># Wine drunk versus shit faced on vodka sodas?
>> [_] Anon 3507369 >># Could you shove your thing in my hole then? Pwease? :3
>> [_] Anon 3507376 >># nothing new just living. just wanted to say thank you :v your tracks are awesome i listen to them still over the years. hang in there :)
>> [_] Anon 3507379 >># >>Any Aussie cunts around /f/? I got a job offer but it's in STRAYA and I don't know fuck all about living in the upside-down. Ausfag here, it's a decent enough country to live in. What city is the job in? Sydney and Melbourne tend to be the cities people love the most. Also god it's been a while for me, I probably haven't been here since like 2015 or 2016. Good to see /f/ is still alive despite flash being killed, this always was one of the comfier boards. I've improved my life massively since but these days I'm just lonely as fuck. Finishing up university with a degree I'm not passionate about at all and seeing people in friend groups while I've made like 1 friend this whole time is soul crushing.
>> [_] Anon 3507382 >># lol faggot
>> [_] Anon 3507389 >># Less than three to you too good sir.
>> [_] Anon 3507390 >># L O N D O N O N D O N
>> [_] Anon 3507392 >># I live on my own though. Gotta pay rent and food.
>> [_] Anon 3507395 Man was born tired He lives to rest
>> [_] Anon 3507396 this board is the only place on the internet that still carries the spirit of old 4chan
>> [_] Anon 3507398 >># How's that?
>> [_] Anon 3507399 >># Lurk moar
>> [_] Anon 3507400 >># unfortunately it's no longer possible to lurk old 4chan. dunno if there's even any archive of it still up with pre-2010 posts with media.
>> [_] Anon 3507402 >># Nowadays most of the internet is just a constant war between /pol/acks and trannies. The few parts that haven't been touched by that shit just constantly rave about how it used to be better. /f/ is the only place that still produces OC
>> [_] :v 3507405 >># This is a very succinct wrap up of the state of things. I think people's willingness to make OC, everywhere not just /f/, has been heavily impacted by social media "clout" turning into some sort of "job." People really think they deserve to be paid to have people listen to their half backed lukewarm takes on issues. Obviously clout chasing on /f/ would hilariously ineffective as there's like what? 20 of us on at a time? If you are posting OC on /f/ you know the best you're probably going to get is "neat" but more likely nothing at all. Sure you have regular posters and namefags but I mean the board runs just fine without those contributions. Doses will be posted, months can not be waited for. The cycle continues. It's not as deep as I'm making it sound obviously but there is truth there, at least I think so.
>> [_] Anon 3507406 >># Hey, :v. Are you still updating your soundcloud?
>> [_] :v 3507407 >># Yes and no. I'm locked out of the email account it's linked to and while I could get back in I really don't want wipe everything in there with a reset. Was going to start a Bandcamp but I got distracted.
>> [_] gravelord 3507408 >># wow
>> [_] Anon 3507409 >># I did all the math I could by putting schizophrenia through a normie centerfuge I didnt ask for and all I got for it was this continuous sense of dizziness towards understanding what really is, it's an endless maze so long as you do one thing at a time, leading me to believe centrifugal force is all I really need.
>> [_] Anon 3507410 >># it's not much, but follow the links here https://museum.heyuri.net/ desuarchive has some old archives too
>> [_] :v 3507411 >># Good to see you /f/rendo
>> [_] gravelord 3507415 >># keep up the music you're too talented to quit
>> [_] Anon 3507416 >># >How are you /f/? are you eating well? Sleeping? I'm trying to be more active in my job searching. Hopefully I'll finally be able to make enough to where I don't feel like shit buying things i want/need
>> [_] Anon 3507422 We're all gonna be fine. >># I think this is very true. The moment OC becomes subject to any kind of manufacturing, the magic is lost. That is why probably we (>we) are grateful for you and my man >>#
>> [_] Anon 3507426 >># Sucks to live in a country without infinite neetbux I guess.
>> [_] Anon 3507429 >># Actually my country has that but with inflation it's getting tougher.
>> [_] Anon 3507430 >># >but with inflation it's getting tougher. Curse you Dobson!
>> [_] Anon 3507434 this thread is dildos
>> [_] Anon 3507437 :v anon, upload the song used in this swf
>> [_] :v 3507439 >># Song is render1.Wav by :v because I never bother to title things. It might show up on SoundCloud later (it won't)
>> [_] :v 3507440 >># No u